The Cynic Says……

hot damn… I got a fucking haircut… it looks SOOOOOOO much better, and feels about 50,000 times better to boot. It actually looks better this time around than it normally does when I get it cut short. I dunno what she did, but it just looks a lot better than usual. I think the chick’s just good like that. I have to go into work tomorrow @1pm as usual. Hopefully the girl I mentioned previously will be around… I’ve informed the trainer about her (he and I have become good friends), so MAYBE if they get to shadow with anyone, he’ll put her with me. I wouldn’t get so lucky, of course… I don’t think I’d be able to concentrate anyway… Everytime I get around her, I get this funky feeling in my stomach and tend to stumble over my words a lot. :-\ kinda sucks, but I managed to keep it in check when I worked with her. Still, though… good god the things I would do to this girl. Frankly, I don’t think I stand a chance in hell with her… even though we have all kinds of stuff in common AND she digs skinny guys (she told me herself and I’ve heard her mention it to a co-worker). I mean, as far as the other girl I’d been talking to goes, as much as I’d like it to work out, I’m kinda losing hope to be honest. It’s not a matter of me not liking her anymore or anything… it’s just a matter of me being realistic. I’m the opposite of what she normally dates, both physically and psychologically. She even told me herself that I’m not the kind of guy she’d normally date. Plus, when talking to her friend I mentioned that as soon as the girl in question came across a hot guy that would give her the time of day, I’d be kicked to the curb… her resonse: “Probably so”. This leads me to believe that the two have discussed it, however the girl in question doesn’t seem to think that I’m capable of handling the fact that she’s really not interested in me. Either that or she doesn’t want to give up the guaranteed multiple orgasms just yet (can’t blame her there). But hell, if that’s all she wants, all she has to say is “I don’t wanna date you, but you can go down on me all you want”. Very simple and it wouldn’t bother me one bit, to be perfectly honest. Oh, well… I can’t really say I’m worried about it at this point. I’m just gonna let her come to me and decide what she wants from me (if anything). I’d be lying if I said I didn’t like her… and her kids (well, I’ve only met one) are incredibly cool. I don’t much care for kids, but I can deal with kids over 4 or 5 yrs old… It’s babies that I don’t care for. They’re cute as hell, but just too much work. Needless to say, I’m not even gonna bother trying anything with anyone else until I get the official blow-off from this one. Oddly enough, I just realized that I’ve more or less re-hashed my last post. How fucking lame. I guess it’s just the one thing that’s been running through my mind a bit lately. On a lighter note, my day has been rather enjoyable… I got my haircut of courrse, went to the mall and ate and walked around and shit… got to sleep in late today since I didn’t work… saw tons of hot ass girls at the mall. Found some more stuff I want for my computer at CompUSA & Best Buy. Speakers being #1 as I’m using Kent’s old shitty speakers, only one of which works. I should go play some unreal tournament or something. I’m feeling very hyper and there’s nothing better to do. On that note, I’m off… possibly to play some video games.