The Cynic Says……

I had the best fucking night tonight… I can’t even begin to describe how much fun I had. First off, I rolled for the first time in like a year and a half or more, so I was feeling absolutely wonderful all night… We went to Cotton Eyed Joes and there were so many fucking beautiful women there. The coolest part was the simple fact that I was going up to them and actually talked to them. That’s something I NEVER do when I’m there, but tonight I didn’t give a shit. I wasn’t trying to score any pussy or anything; hell, I never even asked for a number or anything. I was just enjoying NOT being a chickenshit for once and actually talking to attractive females. If I could do that on a regular basis whether I’m rolling or not, it would be fucking great. I think I just need to get over the whole “Kevin’s a loser that no hot chick would want to talk to” thing and just be myself and have fun. It’s not really hard to just go up to girls and talk to them… nowhere near as hard as I made it out to be originally. That’s not to say that I’m going to make a habit of this (rolling OR talking to beautiful women), but I’d sure like to be able to. I don’t even get that brave when I’m DRUNK. I’m actually still a major chickenshit when I’m drunk. Oh, well… I have nothing else more to note here. I had fun, enjoyed myself like never before and I’m happy. What more could I say?